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Becoming Human


I first read this book as a requirement for a class I took in college, called “Witnesses to Hope, Heart, and Humanity.” The class featured Pope John Paul II (the witness to hope), St. Therese of Lisieux (the witness to heart), and Jean Vanier (the witness to humanity). (If you can’t tell, I went to a Catholic school.) I had previously never heard of Jean Vanier. I was completely unfamiliar with his work and his writing. I took the class because Pope John Paul II and St. Therese are two of my favorite figures in recent Catholicism. I was not expecting to be so deeply moved by Jean Vanier.

But I was.


I have since re-read this book twice, and intend to continue re-reading it the rest of my life. It touches me in a different way each time I read it. There is such wisdom, such understanding, and such beauty contained within these pages.


Jean Vanier is a gentle, compassionate, and loving person who founded the L’Arche communities that can be found in 36 countries, including many in the USA. The mission of these communities is to be a place where individuals with special needs/disabilities can find a home that encourages them to live their lives fully, joyfully, and beautifully. The stories he tells of residents in the communities will touch a special place in your heart as you realize that as humans, we are all so very similar, despite any differences that may initially be perceived.


This book taught me to look at myself and those in my life in a new way, for we all have some part of us that is wounded and in need of special care. Just as the people who live in these communities learn to overcome their challenges and accept the realities of their lives, so must all of us.


I love this book so much that I’m actually finding it difficult to write about it. I’m at a loss for words when compared with the beauty of the words contained in this book. Jean Vanier is sure to touch a place deep in your soul, a place you may not even be aware is there, and will encourage you to respond by loving more fully every person in your life – including yourself.


One thing that strikes me about him is his drive – his need – to understand people and their actions. When someone has an outburst of anger in the L’Arche community he lives in while writing the book, his thoughts are not to punish, or reprimand, or anything of that nature. He seeks to know the reason for the anger, and with that knowledge, to see how he can help prevent it in the future. He chooses to see everyone as good. It is not our actions that make us good or bad, but the nature of our being. And when our being is wounded, our actions can correspond with this hurt and pain. It is out of this that anger and violence can erupt. Jean Vanier desires to find the brokenness and to find a way to heal it, rather than to inflict further pain through shame or embarrassment.


This perspective strikes home for me in a unique way, and I have tried to adopt it as my own perspective in many cases where I am trying to understand some wrongdoing or destructive event that has taken place. We are all in need of healing and hope. Jean Vanier’s realization of this very concept is what draws him to address the need for all of us to see our common bond as people in this world. It is through accepting each other, understanding each other, helping each other, and healing each other that we can truly become human.


An Order of Coffee and Tears


So I just finished an e-book that I got from BookBub, an email service that I have signed up for that sends me free/discounted book offers every day. Sometimes it has some really great offers, sometimes, well…not so much. I always glance through it, though, in hopes that one of the free offerings is something I’ll be interested in. I’ve gotten some great books that way. The most recent I read was a book called “An Order of Coffee and Tears” by Brian Spangler.


I was initially drawn to the name. Something about coffee and tears sounded like something I’d relate to. Perhaps it’s because I’ve cried over a cup of coffee several times in my life. ๐Ÿ™‚

Then I found out that it took place at “Angela’s Diner” and I was sold. Being that my first name is Angela, I am always drawn to anything with my name on it. It’s common enough to find it occasionally, but uncommon enough that it’s not absolutely everywhere, so there’s still novelty to finding it.

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I downloaded it and continued on with whatever books I was reading at the time, leaving it for a later date. Then, just recently when I was searching for a book to read, I realized it was still waiting for me, and my journey through the book began.

It’s the story of a young runaway who quite literally takes off on foot and traverses the nation in any way she can. She stops for short periods of time to find a place to eat or make a few bucks, but always takes off before making any real connections with anyone. She is trying to escape her past (which we don’t find out about until much later in the book) and is not ready to let anyone get close to her. She comes across Angela’s Diner and sees the “Help Wanted” sign. She decides to give the waitress thing a go. The woman who hires her can sense that there’s more to her story than just being a young person in need of a job, and takes to her in a special way. There are three workers at the diner – the young woman, the older woman, and the cook –ย  a gentle and protective man. The diner sees their regulars come and go, and the relationships among everyone grow and strengthen as time passes. One of the patrons is a young woman in an abusive relationship who often comes in for “an order of coffee and tears” after her husband has beat her and she needs solace from people who care about her. There are others who come in for “an order of coffee and tears” throughout the book, often sharing their stories with the waitresses, then after being reassured and encouraged, take off back into their lives.

There are a lot of components to this story that would require a lot more explanation than I see is necessary (they’d be total spoilers in case any of you care to read the book). So I am going to skip over a whole lot of it in order to focus on what I find is most important: the theme. In this book, the workers (and some others, including some patrons, the handyman, etc.) end up building their friendships/relationships in such a way that they become one another’s family. It’s as if many of them have been either abandoned, rejected, or have fled their families (for one reason or another) and are in need of a place to feel welcomed, accepted, and even loved. It’s this major theme that I enjoyed in this book so much. As I said before, there are a lot of other things going on in the book (it’s really a rather involved plotline – one that’ll keep you wondering!). But for my purposes, I just wanted to focus on the family aspect.

I can very much relate to the idea of building your family from people who you share a common bond with, but not common blood. I have many friends who are much closer to me than those I share a gene pool with, and that’s a wonderful thing. I feel that God places those people in our lives for a reason. We come across them at particular moments in our lives where we can benefit from one another’s experiences, the wisdom we gained from them, and the encouragement that can be provided. This type of family is one that can have a truly unique and beautiful bond, because it was constructed by and for one another.


The book is definitely worth a read. It’s not long, and the writing style is easy to get into. The theme is something I believe most people can connect to. And the major events that happen in the book that I have not touched on are certainly worth reading about and trying to guess what will happen next and how it’ll all end up. The ending is perfect – not sappy sweet, but happy, and well-deserved.

Joy for Beginners


While perusing the audiobook selection on the local library’s website, I ran across a book called “School of Essential Ingredients.” It looked like an awesome book, pairing what I love to read about — food and life lessons. I went to check it out and saw that it was unavailable because someone else already had it. Wah. But, since I was so intrigued about said book, I decided to see if the author had any other books available that looked to be similar. That’s when I ran across “Joy for Beginners.” At first I found the title off-putting – it sounded like a schmaltzy self-help book to me. But I read the description and was curious. I thought it had potential. The characters in the book were more of the middle-aged variety (of which I am not yet) and though I have absolutely nothing against that age group, I find sometimes reading books with characters of a different age than I am or have been can be complicated due to the fact that I find it much harder to put myself in their shoes. I’ve never been married, so I don’t understand the give and take of marriage. I have no children, and although I have been an elementary school teacher, I can’t possibly understand the sacrifices required to be a good parent. In addition to these things (since not all middle-aged women have been married or have children, it’s not like these are universal experiences), I lack the general life experience that comes with the passing of each year added to our lives. HOWEVER, I think I gleaned just plenty from the book, attempting to place myself in their shoes for experiences I had never had, and drawing on similar emotions from other experiences I had lived through.

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Now, I know some book bloggers try to avoid spoilers and such, while others are happy to write the entire synopsis sparing very few details. I will try to be somewhere in the middle of this, not giving too much away, but sharing enough that I feel I can adequately draw my conclusions and make my points.

To begin, the story is one of the friendship between women. These stories are always so significant to me, because I have some terrific women in my life who have truly been the portrait of friendship for me. They have been there for those “middle of the night” crises, a sounding board, a push to get me going, a yield sign to slow me down, a warm heart, a calming cup of tea, and so, so much more. The friends in this story met in a rather haphazard way, as many friendship circles do – through mutual friends, common experiences, and that mysterious thing called “chance.” This circle of friends was mostly formed to help one of the women (Sara) who had recently given birth to twins, in addition to her busy and inquisitive little son. The women decide to start a “baby-holding” circle, in which one woman per day goes to the home of the mother to help her take care of one of the babies while she takes care of the other. The women build their friendship through this “baby-holding” circle, becoming involved in one another’s lives and sharing their commonalities. Then one of them discovers she has breast cancer, and the focus of the circle changes from holding babies to taking care of their friend in her time of need. They are there through all the chemo treatments and dismal days, and when the woman (Kate) goes into remission, they have a “victory party.” At the party, Kate tells her friends that her daughter, who is going away to college, has asked her to go whitewater rafting with her in the Grand Canyon. Kate is set against whitewater rafting, seeing it as terribly dangerous and frightening. Then one friend suggests that if she goes on the rafting trip with her daughter, which scares her, they will all do something which scares them. Kate agrees, as long as she gets to pick what each of her friends has to do as their “challenge.”


Caroline’s challenge is to get rid of her ex-husband’s books. Caroline is a used book buyer at a local bookstore and has a very special affinity for books. In fact, Caroline downright LOVES books. To her, books hold the memories of the people who read them, the places they read them, the life events happening while they were being read – it’s as if each book is a journal of the lives of the people who have read it. The thought of getting rid of her ex-husband’s books breaks her heart, for she feels she will not only be making his exit from her life final by removing the last of his things, but by removing the memories that go with them.


I could connect with Caroline’s struggle to get rid of her ex-husband’s books in that I simply cannot part with my own books for similar reasons. They do seem to have their own soul about them in some ways – reminding us of who we were when we first read the story, what it taught us, who we discussed it with, how it changed us, etc. There is a reason my apartment has books in every room (and I do mean every room), and that many of them are books I have held onto for ages but cannot bear to part with. There are many variations of a quote – all of which are something like “Show me ____, and I will tell you who you are.” To me, it’s “Show me the books you love, and I will tell you who you are.”


Daria is the sister of Marion, whom we will meet later. Daria is an artist – a sculptor, whose challenge is to bake a loaf of bread. This may seem like a ridiculously easy task, but for Daria, there is a lot of emotion tied to this challenge. As a child, Daria felt unable to meet the expectations of her mother, who loved to bake bread. As Daria grew, she began to rebel as a response to her inability to be the perfect child her mother wanted her to be. Due to the ties between her mother and baking bread, Daria has never tried this (relatively) simple task. The journey that she takes in order to bake a loaf of bread and complete her challenge is nothing short of extraordinary. She works through many personal struggles, learns to love in a deeper way, and becomes so much more alive and happy – all because of a loaf of bread.


Although I could not connect to the struggle to bake/cook (I love to cook, and am okay at baking), I could connect to her tentativeness about trying something that you have emotional hang-ups about. I think we all can, actually. What was most exciting about her story was not the fact that she accepted and completed her challenge, but that she did so in such a glorious and memorable fashion.


Sara had dreamt of traveling when she was young, and had always wanted to go abroad and explore. Upon graduating from college, though, she married and shortly thereafter, had children. She took on the responsibilities of a wife and mother, tending to the needs of her family, often neglecting those of her own. The challenge she is given is to travel abroad- alone. With just a short amount of time to prepare herself for this endeavor, Sara is off to Venice, Italy. As someone who loves photography, she is a keen observer of her surroundings. It is these very observations that not only make her trip to Italy memorable, but also life-changing, as she connects what she learns in Italy to how she can live and enjoy her life back home.


This is a challenge I personally think I would do miserably with. I do not think I would like to travel alone. It’s not for safety concerns, or out of fear of getting lost or whatnot – it’s because I love to share. I love to point at something I find fascinating, and have someone else there to look at it and marvel with me. I like to discuss my experience with someone who was right alongside me during it, reflecting on how each of us perceived things in a similar or different manner. I get so much out of sharing with others. I think traveling alone would require a lot of me, because I would be constantly wishing I could turn to my side and make a comment to my companion, or wind down at the end of the evening discussing the events of the day with them. And yet, while “traveling” with Sara as she journeyed alone, I can see the merit in the time alone for personal reflection, and can appreciate the value this can have. I just don’t know that it’d be for me.


Hadley is a young widow who lives next door to Sara. Hadley’s husband died in a car accident just a few days shy of their one-year wedding anniversary. She is unsure of how to carry on with her life, since it is no longer the life she had been planning and wanting. She moves into a small house with a garden and nestles into not only it, but herself. As she becomes more and more hermit-like, Sara and her family move in next door, with their young, active son and newborn twins. Hadley is awakened by the life that has moved in next door, but continues to keep to herself. The challenge Hadley is given is to tend her overgrown, unruly garden. The garden has become symbolic for the way that Hadley has decided to hide away, to become safely lost, and to keep to herself. By cutting away the overgrowth and tending to the plant life that is struggling to emerge despite being choked out by weeds, Hadley learns to open herself up to others. She discovers that each flower, herb, fruit, and vegetable has been planted with a unique purpose in mind, and learns to “read” the gardens people plant, revealing details about the gardener and his/her life.


This chapter inspired me because I love gardening and flowers. As soon as I finished reading this one, I ran to my balcony and began digging in the dirt. Since it is autumn, there is not a lot of life to nurture. But I did dig my hands into my compost pile, remove some of the best compost I could find, and blended it in with the good, organic soil, telling myself that next spring my garden will blossom and grow and make me so, so very happy. I agree with Hadley – you can look at a person’s garden (or lack thereof) and learn oh-so-much about them as an individual. Perhaps this is why I find it so soothing to tend to my garden – in some small way, I feel like I am tending to my own soul’s needs.


Marion is Daria’s sister, and while Daria is more rebellious, Marion has been pretty simplistic with the way she lives her life. She tried to please her parents, and cared about making them happy. Though Marion has wanted a tattoo since her youth, she has never gotten one because she knows her parents would not approve. The challenge that Marion is given, of course, is to get a tattoo. She first treats it as an opportunity for research, since she is a journalist and can get away with learning more about it under this safe guise. But as she walks around a tattoo convention, learning about the reasons people get the tattoos they do, Marion is not only intrigued but inspired. The tattoo that Marion wants and gets is never revealed to the reader, which sort of bummed me out, because I really wanted to know what it was that she felt so compelled by that she wanted to tattoo it on her person.


The tattoo above is mine. I took that picture just the other day when preparing to write this post. It is on my right wrist. I, like Marion, have always been fascinated by tattoos. Perhaps that is why I have three, and plan to get more. I think that they can be so beautiful and symbolic of the journey a person has taken. They are a truly unique art form – one that is both journal and beauty – and one that is lifelong and unchanging. Each of my tattoos means something special to me. Actually, in thinking about it, my tattoos can be tied to the theological virtues. My angel tattoo: faith. My phoenix tattoo: hope. And the tattoo above, well, obviously: love. My tattoos are reminders, are memories, are inspiration.


Ava’s character is different than the rest, because she was not a part of the baby-holding circle, nor was she physically present for Kate while she was undergoing her cancer treatments. Ava is a childhood friend of Kate’s who chose to stay away (they do not live in the same town anymore so this is not difficult) during Kate’s treatment because it was too difficult for her to deal with the potential reality of the situation. Having lost her mother to cancer as a young girl, Ava knows all too well how this process can work, and is afraid to allow herself to get too involved. She does come to Kate’s victory party, though, and since she is in attendance, she too is given a task. Her challenge is to attend the three-day breast cancer walk. Ava has no idea what she’s in for. As she begins the walk she mostly keeps to herself – an observer rather than a participant. But as the days go on and she meets family members and friends of those affected by breast cancer, as well as survivors, of course, she breaks out of her shell and begins to feel and unite with these people. She realizes the connection they share and ends up feeling overcome with the sense of family and the emotionality of it all as she crosses the finish line.


I have never personally attended a breast cancer walk, but I have attended walks for other causes. And they can definitely be an eye-opening experience. Having been blessed enough at this point in my life to not have lost anyone to breast cancer, I consider myself an anomaly. And this is sad. I should be in the majority, not the minority. The prevalence of cancer in our society is a horrible reality, and I am encouraged by the many advancements that are being made by scientists and researchers in the field of cancer treatment. Awareness walks such as this breast cancer walk are a great way to show encouragement and support for those fighting for their lives, as well as those who are caregivers to those individuals. Hopefully, one day these walks will become victory marches, much like Kate’s victory party.


This brings us back to Kate, whose challenge proposed by her daughter, Robin, started it all. She is to go whitewater rafting. And not just on a day-trip, but on an actual journey lasting several days. Her friends have encouraged her by saying she beat cancer, what does she have to be afraid of at this point? She explains her fear is in that if she dies whitewater rafting, it will be for a silly, unnecessary reason. She did not have to go whitewater rafting. She did have to fight the cancer. This makes perfect sense. But, then again, what is the point of fighting for life if not to enjoy it by doing things that begin as challenging and perhaps scary, but end up being worth it in the end? With risk can come great reward. Kate’s journey finds her crying to the river about the pain she’s gone through in the course of her cancer treatment, navigating the boat for her team through some rough rapids, and eventually baring both her soul (and her body) while skinny dipping with the women in the group – a huge step for a woman who has had a double mastectomy. But, as she comes to find out – it is all worth it.


I have not been on a whitewater rafting expedition journey as such, but I have been whitewater rafting a few times. And I LOVE IT. I have been to a place in Wisconsin, as well as through the Royal Gorge in Colorado. Both locations were incredible. I love the thrill of figuring out how to navigate the boat, when to lean in to a rapid, when to paddle like hell to get out of danger’s path, and when to relax and revel in the fact that you just did an awesome job and are still alive and floating. ๐Ÿ™‚ It’s definitely something worth trying. The times I’ve gone in Wisconsin have been with no guide – just me and some family members out on our own. The time in Colorado we had a trained guide. Both were good experiences; but I prefer having no guide. I like to be able to calculate, attempt, and achieve due to my own planning and action. I think that is what Kate felt toward the end of the journey – a sense of accomplishment, growth, and empowerment.

This book most certainly impacted me in many ways – one of which is wondering what my challenge would be if assigned by my friends. I can’t imagine what they would think I would benefit from doing that isn’t something that is obvious. Perhaps that will be something I will address with my closest friends and see what the answer I get from each of them ends up being…


The Perks of Being a Wallflower


I admit that I ignored this book when it came up in my recommendations for a long time. I thought it didn’t seem like the type of book I would “get.” But then I saw that a movie version was coming out, and had Emma Watson in it, and since I’ve loved Emma Watson since her Hermione Granger days, I decided to give the book a chance.

I’m so glad I did.


As much as this is a “coming-of-age” novel, it’s definitely applicable to those of us who are already technically “of age” but still have a lot of learning to do. In the book, the main character, Charlie, writes to an unknown reader about his life. He explains what he sees, what he does, what he learns, and who he is becoming as a result. As a “wallflower,” Charlie spends a lot of time observing others and trying to make sense of his surroundings. As a bit of an outcast, he is delighted to become accepted by some older schoolmates during his freshman year of high school. These people, too, are the outcasts, and have a very unique and beautiful way of living their lives as they (not others) see fit.


As people who really don’t care what others think, these individuals are free to do what makes them happy. This is, of course, quite unusual, considering high school is often a very chameleon-like experience, trying to fit in in whatever surroundings you might find yourself. But not these folks. And that takes Charlie by surprise.

Charlie is struggling with depression following the suicide of his friend, and as he becomes more involved with this group of people, he learns how to live.


He learns to take chances. He learns that the best moments are often ones that require risk of embarrassment. He learns about love, and about true friendship. He struggles accepting the friendship his friends are offering to him, unsure of why they find him worthy of their time and effort. He discovers a truth about friendship, and about love:

And he decides to try to open himself up to accepting more for himself. He begins to share who he is – his dreams and goals of being a writer, and his love for Sam (played by Emma Watson). One evening while driving down the road with his friends, they go through through the Fort Pitt tunnel, and Sam gets into the bed of the truck, stands up with her arms out, and imagines she is flying while they blast the song “Heroes” by David Bowie. The mood is electric, and Charlie thinks “at that moment, I swear we were infinite.”


It is this love for Sam that leads him to discover something painful about his past, and telling about his future. During a moment of potential passion between Sam and Charlie, Charlie realizes that he “can’t do it” and shuts down. Throughout the book Charlie has been trying to process his feelings about his aunt and her death via car accident, and has remembered how much of an impact she had on him while he was growing up. It is during this moment with Sam that Charlie understands what happened between him and his aunt, and this rocks him to the core. He has a breakdown and ends up in the hospital.


With the help of his family and friends, Charlie learns to heal from the abuse in his past. Sam (and her brother Patrick, who plays a big part but I have yet to mention…oops), come to visit Charlie and inspire him to embrace life in the now. He realizes he can’t change what has happened, but he can impact what happens now and in the future.


The story is one of learning to come out of one’s shell, of learning to become oneself despite what others may think/say/do, and of learning to be okay with whoever it is you are. It’s one of living life and choosing to look at painful or difficult situations as challenges and opportunities. It’s about learning that only in taking a risk can we have the types of experiences that will make memories and experiences that make an impact on our lives. When we find people who encourage who we are becoming, we find the strength within ourselves to grow, learn, develop, and blossom into the person those who love us know we can be.


Life In A Jar


About a year ago, I read the book “Life in a Jar” by Jack Mayer. This book is the story of Irena Sendler, an extraordinarily courageous Polish woman whose dedication and selflessness saved the lives of children in the Warsaw ghetto during WWII.


Being of Polish descent, I am always fascinated by all-things-Polish. I did not grow up in a family that knew a lot about our heritage, so any customs and traditions are new and exciting to me. I long to connect more fully with my Polish ancestry. Take that and combine it with my admiration for the people who lived through the deplorable conditions of WWII, and well, this book naturally appealed to me.

Once I began reading about Irena, who was such a normal young lady, it was really quite easy to feel a connection to her. She was like me, or any other young woman out in the world, trying to balance her family of origin, with a new job, and perhaps a love interest. We’ve all heard this story before, right? And, we can all relate to it, right? But really, that’s where the relatability ends and the admiration begins. See, as I continued reading, I was no longer feeling like she and I were similar – but that she was so much more heroic and courageous than I could ever be! I read of her disapproval of the way that people began to be treated when the Nazis moved in, and how her Jewish friends were terrified of being taken away without notice, possibly never to be seen again. As a social worker, she would have had the ability to provide the Jewish people with resources for food and housing, but if she did and were found out, she could be sent away, too. Her whole life was turned upside down.

However, this did not stop Irena. When her father was dying when she was a young child, he gave her his last words of wisdom that became the foundation on which she built her life and chose her actions. He explained to her that if she sees a person drowning, she must jump in to try to save that person – whether or not she can swim herself. He said she must not idly stand by and watch the person die.

As Irena grew and became a social worker, it was clear that she was doing her best to “save the drowning.” So, when she began to see what the Nazis were doing to her friends, family, and neighbors, she knew she had to do something.


Now, before I continue, I must make you aware that this blog post will not even come close to detailing the incredible work that this woman accomplished. I will only mention a few of the things that stuck out most for me. But if any of this moves you to consider reading the book, then please, I urge you, do so! Her story is nothing short of remarkable.

In the photo above, you see Irena in a truck. Irena would dress as a nurse in order to be allowed into the Warsaw ghetto. The Nazi police allowed nurses in, because they were very afraid of catching the typhus epidemic that was raging in the ghetto, taking the lives of many. Irena used this fear to her advantage. She worked with a medical supplies deliveryman who would help her hide children amongst the medical linens in the van. When the Nazis would look into the van to inspect and see the soiled linens, they would wave the van on, not wanting to risk catching any illness that might be contained on those linens. Once safely outside the ghetto, Irena would set the children up with a sort of “foster family” who would look after the children until they could place them in another safe place. It was a type of “underground railroad,” so to speak. Many of the children ended up living with the families who took them in because their parents perished in the inhumane conditions of the ghetto, or were sent to death camps. It is said that in her rescue efforts, Irena saved the lives of 2500 children. Calling her heroic and courageous really doesn’t do her legacy justice, for she was so much more!


Throughout the course of the years following WWII, Irena went back to her relatively normal life, and her deeds went uncelebrated. That is, until a group of high school students from Kansas ran across a brief article about her while looking for a topic for their history fair project. When they began doing research on her, they found that there was very little information available. They wrote to and called many resources, from the Holocaust Museum in Washington, D.C. to the Holocaust Memorial in Poland. In each location they were given more information that helped them piece together Irena’s story. Then the best news of all came: Irena was still alive! They were able to communicate with her (via a translator, of course), and even visited her in Poland. These high school girls were so moved by Irena and her story that they decided to make it their mission to help spread her story to all.


For their history project, they put together a play which told the story of Irena’s assistance to the children in the ghetto. The reaction the play was so great that they continued presenting it to many groups, sharing the story of Irena Sendler. It is still in production today.


The story of Irena Sendler was also adapted into a movie produced by Hallmark. This movie also does an incredible job of sharing the inspiring story of Irena. See if you can find it at your local library – and if not, suggest that they carry it!


Now, the question you might be asking yourself is – why the “Life in the Jar” title? What does this story have to do with jars? The answer: For every child that Irena rescued from the Warsaw ghetto, she wrote the child’s given name and new name on a piece of paper, then placed it in a jar and buried it under a tree. The children’s given names were often Jewish, so they were given a more Christian-sounding name in order to protect their identities (otherwise they might get sent back to the ghetto). In an effort for the children to be able to know who they really were, as well as to reunite them with family once the war was over, she kept these records. And, since she would be subjected to major punishment if found out, she had to bury the jars to protect both herself and the children she rescued. (Despite the gravity of this story – there is one funny part that goes with this story…the tree that Irena buried the jars under was in the backyard of a friend’s residence. The friend resided across the street from the Nazi police station. This woman was really quite gutsy!! ๐Ÿ™‚ย  )

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Irena Sendler died in 2008, but her legacy lives on in the lives (and now descendants) of the children she rescued, all those inspired by her story to do good for others, and through the work of the Irena Sendler Project. I encourage you to peruse this website in order to familiarize yourself with this incredible story, as well as the work that continues in Irena’s name. Perhaps you can even locate a production of the “Life in a Jar” play that is coming near your town!

The story of Irena Sendler is a beautiful story that shows one of my favorite Mother Teresa quotes in action: “We can do no great things; only small things, with great love.” By saving each one of those individual children, secretly arranging a safe place for them to live, and remaining humble about the whole thing, Irena’s “small things” that she carried out with “great love” have continued to serve as a reminder to all of us about who we are called to be as members of the same human family. To each child she saved, her “small” action had an enormous and untold impact, giving them a chance to live, to grow, to share, and to carry on her legacy of “great love.”


Three Little Words


I just finished the audiobook, “Three Little Words” yesterday. It’s read by the author, Ashley Rhodes-Courter. I found it on my library’s audiobook website, and was surprised I hadn’t heard of it before. I’m always interested in the stories of foster/adopted children. The book’s description said that it would open my eyes to the truth of the foster care system, which instantly intrigued me.


The cover of the book, featuring a little girl in angel wings, was what first grabbed me. There’s something about it that is both innocent and haunting. When I began reading it, I discovered that that was an accurate assessment. Ashley’s innocent life was haunted with some very real and frightening horrors.

The book begins with the story of a teenage mother whose twin sister and she take on theย  responsibility of raising her child, Ashley. The mother isn’t sure who the father is, and struggles to come up with the necessary requirements for raising a child (food, housing, etc.). She begins dating and later has two children with a man who isn’t always the best to her, but helps to take care of both her and her children. She overlooks the sour aspects of the relationship in favor of the sweet. These two young people do their best (at times) to raise these children, yet are often overcome with difficulties and hardships. Poor choices, including drug abuse, aid in the making of the storm which causes the child protective services to come in and take custody of the children (at this point there are only two children, as one of them died of SIDS shortly after birth). The children long to be reunited with their mother; however, they are placed in the foster care system with no explanations given to them. They are puzzled, scared, and anxious for their futures. As they move through the foster system, their situation seems to only grow worse. They are placed in overcrowded homes, where children are often neglected. Their worst experience comes when they are placed at the Moss family residence, which is actually more of a torture chamber. Mrs. Moss is an evil woman who gets a sick satisfaction out of terrorizing children. It’s terrible to listen to how horrifically she treats the children, then when the case workers come around, she bakes cookies and acts perfect and pleasant. It’s stomach-turning, really. Eventually Ashley makes her way to a home in which her future adoptive parents spot her and begin the process of taking her into their family and lives. Ashley is hesitant to believe that these people truly care about her due to the letdowns and mistreatments she’s experienced in the past. She acts out when she begins to live with them, expecting them to give up on her, too. But they don’t. They accept her, work with her, love her, and reassure her that she’s there to stay.


With their help they are able to bring her case to court to prevent any more children from being taken in and abused by the Moss family. They fight for not only Ashley but for all foster children who are mistreated and abused every day in America. The impact she has is extraordinary, earning herself a ticket to the White House to meet the president, as well as another meeting with J.K. Rowling (who she admires due to Harry Potter’s orphan status, and the similarities between Hogwarts and Ashley’s experiences at the children’s home). Ashley becomes a confident and impassioned speaker who travels sharing her story in an attempt to encourage social workers, foster care workers and families, the court system, and anyone with an interest in the well-being of children, to keep their eyes and ears open, to listen to the children, provide the care the children need, and get them into a stable forever home as soon as is reasonable. She honors her guardian ad litem, Mary Miller, for how hard she fought for her to keep her safe and find her a good and loving home. (The picture below is of Mary Miller and Ashley)


This book inspired me in many ways. As I mentioned, I’ve always had a special interest in foster/adopted children. I would absolutely love to get personally involved in foster care someday, with the hopes of adopting a child or two. I love kids and have such compassion for children who have been through difficult times. Hearing stories like Ashley’s makes me all the more passionate about fighting for these children to have a chance to become who they can be, nourished with the love and respect they deserve that will help them grow. It’s really an extraordinary book, but what’s even more outstanding is how wonderfully this young lady turned out, despite the painful things she has gone through. She’s an inspiration not only to foster children/adopted children, but to all people, as we are all interconnected in the human family. “Whatsoever you do for the least of these…”


Ellen Hopkins – Impulse


I’m a big fan of Ellen Hopkins. My favorite book of hers is entitled “Impulse.” I’ve read a few others of hers, and I have definitely enjoyed them. However, I could not put “Impulse” down. It was delightfully consuming.


There are several things to love about Ellen Hopkins’ writings. The first, at least for me, is her writing style. The way the words are laid out on the page is extraordinary. She writes in verse, and many times the verse takes on a shape significant to the content of the text. This adds such visual interest that you can’t help but be intrigued. And secondly, her subject matter is edgy, is graphic, is surprising, and is GENUINE. She has a keen sense of the struggles many young people encounter in today’s world, and expresses them in a way that helps to give voice to what they are going through, as well as helps to communicate these things to those who are invested in helping and caring for them.

In “Impulse,” there are three main characters who meet at a residential facility for teenagers in need of intensive psychiatric care after having attempted suicide. The three characters do not know each other, nor are they all that similar (at least, at face value). However, their lives become interconnected through their therapy sessions, daily activities, and shared struggles. Each character’s story is incredibly personal and compelling; however, the one that I related to most was Vanessa. Her story opens with her suicide attempt in which she slits her wrists in her family home and is found by her younger brother. Her grandma, a nurse, provides the immediate care necessary to keep her alive until the ambulance arrives. As her story unfolds, we learn that she has a complicated family history involving an absent father and a bipolar mother. Her way of dealing with the pain she feels is acting out sexually, which ends up in a pregnancy she chooses to abort. She’s so overwhelmed by the shameful and painful feelings she has both from what causes her to act out, as well as the aftermath of how she feels from the abortion that she gets involved in self-injurious behaviors. She cuts herself to deal with the emotions she has but cannot handle.


If anyone reading this blog is familiar with self-injury, you may be aware that once a person begins using it as an escape from the reality which they cannot face, it becomes the knee-jerk answer for any time of discomfort. Vanessa, once she has begun hurting herself, finds it impossible to stop. What’s more is that she doesn’t see a reason to stop, since she no longer sees a reason to be alive, let alone healthy.


In my own experience struggling with mental health issues (one of which is self-injury), I can attest to the truth of the quote above. The knowledge that one is not alone, that this struggle and this drive and this confusion is something shared by many, is a huge relief. Because the nature of self-injury is often alienating, due to the fact that many people do not know how to respond to the notion, and are often repulsed by the scars left from self-injurious episodes, many sufferers find themselves feeling rather alone and isolated. The need to hide the wounds and scars is often synonymous with the need for the self-injurer to hide their own thoughts and feelings.


In the book, Vanessa learns to connect with the other characters, who, although their struggles are different, are actually quite similar to her. This connection brings them a certain comfort that was previously unavailable to them, since they previously were not in daily communion with young people facing these types of challenges and concerns. As the quote above says – there is a “simple” need to connect with someone who might understand. It’s funny that this need is considered to be simple, especially when you think of how complex and crucial these relationships can be.

Yet, in the end, Vanessa learns that she can, in fact, overcome the self-loathing and guilt she feels. She can, like a lotus, blossom from the mud where she stands. It is at this point that Vanessa realizes the following:


Personally, I find this quote to be a motivator – something to spur me on into a future filled with hope. It is of no use for us to wail over the past, for it is gone and there is no changing that. What we have is the here and now, in anticipation of what good may come. And of course we will come across trouble, and find ourselves stumbling and losing our direction at times, but the idea is to not allow that to become the way we live our lives. For it is through this cycle of falling down and getting back up that we learn the value of peace and happiness. And, as Vanessa says: our happiest memories we have yet to create.